Learning Lessons

This past week I feel like I've learned so much not only about my self but about my faith and my trust in God. As a christian I've always struggled with surrendering my life over. I've got this control thing about my personality that on many occasions can get the best of me. This week God showed me through his word that my focus was all wrong. "It is better to trust in the Lord than to put confidence in man." -Psalm 118:8 At that moment everything came in perspective. Why should I try and live me life in the way I think best. He's got a plan for me and I need to surrender my life to him so that I may have the opportunity to be the Wife, Mother, Friend, Aunt and Christian that HE wants me to be. Not who I think I should be. Easier said than done, every moment in everyday is a constant reminder what the power of self has over me. The "flesh" in me is what I call it. No justification allowed I say. Self is this monster in me that in a split moment can change my whole day. MY feelings towards people. places and everything in between. Blessings get swept under the table and hurt and pain take over. Then the reminder of Gods love for me trickles in and the warmth of the promises that he makes slowly creep into my heart and mind. For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith--and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God-- Ephesians 2:8 Now to just keep reminding myself each and every day, to ask him in prayer to open my eyes to the beauty of his love and grace. There is no better feeling than to know that you have God by your side and to know his unconditional love for you. To feel and see the blessings that he puts in our lives even when our "flesh" may get in the way. So that's my lesson of the week past and I continue to ask him to teach me and show me something new everyday. Change is always a good thing even when we can't see it at that exact moment.